The Privileged Life

Have you ever wondered what it must be like to live like those you watch on t.v or see on the front of the magazine covers in the grocery aisles? Maybe even thought to yourself what it would be like if one day you received a large sum of money and never had to work again!! At some point we've all wondered about at least one of the subjects mentioned. However, today I was sitting in my office and it came to me that this is it! I'm literally living the "Privileged Life" as the Daughter of "Thee King". Sure, you may look at your current status and think that this is not where you thought that you'd be at this point in your life, or the job you thought you'd have, or unfortunately the spouse that you imagine as a child. However, what I have learned in all of my 26 years is that life is literally what you make it and when I say that, I mean in the sense of what availability you've rendered to your talents, abilities, gifts, desires, visions and dreams.

You see, many people die leaving behind what they could have done, been, seen , and or created. This is sad, but unfortunately some of us will allow that to be our lives as well. Why?.. maybe because of complacency, fear, low self esteem/perception, or maybe the lack of resources. However, that doesn't have to be your story....You have the opportunity right now to make changes, adjustments, let go of relationships, or even welcome new ones. This is literally your time to do that. You no longer have to put it off and think that only "those" people have the resources when your "DADDY IS THEE KING". You've spent far too long allowing yourself to live in limitations and wallowing in regret at the thought of where you "could have been" by now. Just stop! Every time you do that or say that you are giving life to defeat. I tell people all the time "Whatever you feed will grow and whatever you starve will die"...So start neglecting those thoughts, refuse to believe anything besides greatness for your life. Friends, this is the Privileged Life. You must realize that you are currently "at this present moment" an undiscovered diamond. Your perception of what you do and the risk you take in life will blow you away. I actually believe that you will find joy in it.

  My last post was titled "I'm dying" and since then I celebrated a birthday, ended the year (Thank God), and have graciously been blessed to see 2013. With that being said God has been revealing quite a bit, which led me to write this current post. I have been spending countless moments with the Father. I've been doing a lot of thinking, dreaming, mentally vision casting my life and can I tell you that alone has brought such joy. I wish I could share with you all of the things that the Lord has been revealing, but in due time you will know about it.  I challenge and encourage you today, to take a moment and spend some time and dream. Just find a quiet place allow your mind to relax (for once) and just think of what life would be like without any limits....Because literally, THERE ARE NONE. The only limits you have are the ones that you set for yourself. However, you've probably been told for such a long time either by yourself or by others that, you aren't cut out for that..Well, what does that even mean and who determines who is cut out for something anyway!!?? Lets stop feeding defeat....As a matter of fact lets starve it and start feeding Greatness..Lets give life to Greatness in this New Year. Its 2013 and 2012 will not be returning, so let's make the decision together to live "The Privileged Life".  At this point in your life, you are creating , developing and shaping what you will do and what you will have. Create a social cam site or youttube account where people can come and be inspired. Set a blog where people can realize the benefits of eating healthy, or the importance of not settling. Teach a workshop Budgeting. Begin a Mentorship Program where young men understand what it means to be a Man. There is so much to do, the possibilities are endless...I believe that we were all born with purpose. That purpose is based on the availability that I mentioned earlier and the listed opportunities are only some of countless ways to make a difference and embraced this blessed life! GET READY, GET SET, GO!!!!! The time is now to live the Privileged Life with your head held high, knowing who you are and whose you are!!

. The Year of "At a New Measure" 2013.

I'M DYING.....

Wow, I never thought I'd feel like this...I never thought I'd have so many questions in such a short period of time. As I sit here in my office in Canada, my mind runs through all that has happened over the first quarter of my life. As I reflect, I can honestly say that I barely recognize myself anymore. I think to myself, will people even know me anymore? What will they say? How will they respond? This really hurts...I was always told that dying wasn't easy and for some iT can be a very scary thing but as I sit here just having received the news from God, that I am "dying" it hits me...That this is it...No going back, no turning the hands of time...Its over and life as I know it will never exist again...

As I sit here, I must say that I am hurting but relieved at the same time. Over the years I've had so many thoughts, to do so many things, to go so many places and to meet so many people...and you mean to tell me that it's all over...Wow, as tears roll down my face at just the thought of what this means...I can say that I am thankful that God extended his grace for me to do things my way for so long, all while being under the impression that I was "Oh so submitted and surrendered". The truth is: I was submitted, to me that is. I had lived a surrendered life but it was to me, myself, and I.

Sure, I left everything and everyone that was familiar to me behind, years ago when I first moved to the Caribbean and then again, now living in Canada but I'm confronted daily that, that was not Good enough...He wants it ALL...I sit here in disbelief that He (My Daddy- My King) could possibly ask me to give more than what I've given... I mean really God? What more is there to give?? Did I mention I'll be 26 in less than a week, devoted my entire (partial- So glad pride gets buried today) life to God's will since the age of 8, I'm a proud virgin, no husband in sight, and the thoughts of having a family one day, are so far away that there isn't even a blurred image in the backdrop of the scene before me.

 I've been wondering why my thoughts have been so scattered, why nothing really makes a lot of sense...I minister at church quite often, work as the Associate Pastor at the fastest growing ministry in the city, and I am surrounded with some of the most amazing people that I've ever met that I call family and friends....BUT, there is this nagging feeling that pulls me out of myself daily...I fight it..I've even come up with some solutions that I can't even bare to share. How selfish and self centered of me...But it All comes to an End today...

The way I see it, I have no other option. I have no other choice. "I AM DYING"...You see in this faith walk, people decide how much of themselves they want to give but for me I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE. I heard God say A LONG time ago that He wanted all of me and He meant it..Yes, He's come for my LIFE and He wants it NOW....Whew! This is so hard for me..I've been fighting it for some time now. Well, not exactly...I had just convinced myself that "I had already died" but the truth was I was very much alive, even in the sacrifice of giving up everything that was comfortable to me. I was still alive. BUT the time has come for me to officially bury everything....In Luke 14:25-27 Jesus gives me (AND YOU) clear instructions on what it means to be a disciple and follow Him. It means to DIE!!! I can no longer convince myself that I am disciple, while hoping and wishing that ALL of my dreams will be CO-SIGNED by God...That they will make the cut and that He will put his stamp of approval on it...That is not a true disciple..A true disciple has no dreams outside of that which God gives...A true disciple has nothing to be co-signed because their very life is SIGNED by God the Creator. I will be like Simon and Andrew (Mark 1:18).....My net has been DROPPED!!!

So, I share with you, that all of my dreams, all of my plans, all of my wants, all of ME has been buried and no longer lives... My old self has been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. Galatians 2:20